You know you are in trouble when your life starts running you and you find yourself being reactive instead of proactive. I can’t quite put my finger on the exact date or event, but somewhere over the last few weeks that is exactly what happened to me. I don’t know about you, but once I start down that slippery slope its hard to get my footing back. Although my training didn’t suffer (it was the one thing that I was able to be consistent about) most other things in my life did. I had several episodes of “anxiety attacks” on the way to work or even just preparing dinner or doing the legwork in preparation for the extra class I am teaching each month. These anxiety attacks can sometimes put me into a state of “melancholy” and before you know it, I am crying for no reason and feeling like my life sucks. The reality is, it doesn’t suck-far from it; when you are in a “blue” moment…oh heck, I’ll just say it…when you are depressed it skews the way you see the world.
Tomorrow is a big day for me-I will be running a 5K with an actual pace in mind instead of just “surviving” it. The race benefits the Children’s Hospital of Virginia and begins at 9:15. My husband coach trainer running buddy friend had been working with me and my pace has been around 9:40 for my last two runs. I don’t know if I will be that consistent tomorrow because he won’t be there with me (son has a soccer game and he’s the coach) but I have asked my 19 year old to go with me and wait at the finish line to cheer me on.
Wish me luck!
I wish you the best of luck tomorrow, Kim. I think you’ll feel much better after the race is done and the stress is off.
Go girl! I bet that race competitiveness kicks in and you pull a 9:40 pace or better. Pick a skinny bitch in front of you and rock her world!